Saturday, April 23, 2005


I am out of work with no end in sight, or so it would seem. The backbone of my work experience is in the support of health care professionals. There is a hospital here in town which employs 34,000 people, and in this huge hospital, I have a contact. She is in a higher role than I hope to play and she is advising me. She is real. Her advice is useful and real. Her willingness to back me is real.

On April 11th, I filled out an application, handed in a resume, and provided five respectable test scores. All are now in the hands of the supervisor of a real job opening. I wrote a follow-up letter expressing my pointed interest based on internet research and advice from my inside contact. As of Monday, April 25th, that letter will be in the hands of that same supervisor. I do not see the end I would wish for in sight, but I am encouraged.

Today’s issue appears to be perceptions. The strict rule about job seeking is that a job is not real until the first paycheck has been deposited. Nothing short of that is real. The strict rule about a life of faith is that one is never alone with life, tests, applications or letters. My world view says that I have a strong hand with mine on the pen or the keyboard scratching and tapping away. I am encouraged.

Feeling encouraged is a kind of faith. Faith is the assurance of God’s Grace, and Grace is the assurance of God’s love. Being encouraged means that I have a feeling of strength and acceptance regarding the unknown. Fear is always a lie and faith is always true. That there is no end in sight is a lie. My present circumstances must resolve. As much as I want to know how they will resolve, I know that I do not need to know. In this state of cheerful uncertainty, I have a strong heart. God offers me the choice of how I perceive this moment. I will not be disheartened by a foolish perception of something I cannot know.

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